i spent a good hour looking through zu’s baby photos and watching baby videos tonight. its starting to settle in–we’re going to do this again! its strange to look back at those photos of her from when she was first born–i feel like i barely knew her back then, if that makes sense. and the first few months were so rough–the difficulty feeding her, living in the drafty farmhouse, relocating to a different state. i have so many questions in my mind–will this pregnancy be the same as the last? will this baby do the same things zu did or was it just particular to her? what will it be like taking care of two? my heart belongs so fully to bryan and zu, and now its expanding to take in this unknown other.